Before I contracted Lyme disease along the Middle Fork of the Flathead River in northwest Montana, I had everything I wanted. I had pretty much reached all of the major goals I had set for myself and then some.
Not only had I gotten into (and completed) graduate school, but I had done so under the former Chief of my agency, and a conservation, wildlife, and wildland fire hero. I had landed the perfect job, which was created for me, in my first choice location. In fact, it was a combination of the districts that together made up my top choice location in the nation.
I decided to carry this over from my corresponding Facebook page (Invisibly Lyme Montana) as perhaps the beginning of a (gratitude)habit, or just a piece of my story to share.
I posted this last Sunday. Monday I had a rough day—a bit of remorse driving past and through the magnificence of two of my districts, followed by a horrible reaction to a very small exposure to a food I no longer can tolerate.
But people responded to and shared this post, which brought it back to mind and made me feel better.
From Sunday, October 5, 2014:
Today, I am less saddened by the thought that before Lyme disease I had everything I wanted. I am grateful and blessed to have achieved all of the goals I had set for myself and that I got to work for several years in a perfect job in a perfect place. My job was made for me (literally) and it wasn’t perfect, but it was challenging and meaningful, physical and cognitive, and wonderful. I am grateful for what I had, and that my kids got to see me do it and got to do it with me. I am praying for all of us, but I’m thinking today especially of all of you trying to finish college or high school, that you will get glimpses of how wonderful life is going to be when you are better and how much sweeter it will be for you because of what you have survived. I got to live my dreams first, but you will get to live yours SO richly and magically because you will have the rare gift of really knowing what you have….